sugarME

change me

2010-08-15T21:30:00.000+08:00

CHANGE ME

[Chorus:]
You know that I love you
You know that I love you
You know that I need you
You're my air that I breathe you
You know that I love you
You know that I love you
You know that I need you
You're my air that I breathe you

So don't try to change me
So don't try to change me
Why would you change me
Why would you change me (baby I will let you go)
So don't try to change me
So don't try to change me
Why would you change me
Baby I will let you go

You know I
I had my
My vices
You said you could handle it
But you lied
Cause you tried to change me
Mold me, Nooooo
Everything you loved before
You don't love no more
Everything I did for you
You don't want no more
Maybe I'm not quite the girl you been lookin for
But you agreed
So how can you not see

[Chorus]

Why must I
Decide on
Weather I love you are the world
You met me
You fell deeply
In love with me
So what is the problem now
Everything you loved before
You don't love no more
Everything I did for you
You don't want no more
Maybe I'm not quite the man you been lookin for
But you agreed
So how could you not see

[Chorus]

Why would you wanna change me
Arrange me
Is that what you call love
Maybe you need somebody different
Somebody who fits you like a glove
But don't change
Everything that you love
About me
When you love them

[Chorus: til fade out

stupid

2010-08-15T21:16:00.004+08:00

he told me he like and ask me to be his girlfriend. i answered him nicely. yet he questioned me why am i so nice to him. what do he expect me to do. its good enough i am still talking nicely. wad a stupid question. i think guys are getting stupid each day. its good enough i didn't even hold grudges to what he had done to me in the past. a normal human change. and its really tiring myself to get mad.

JANGAN SAKITI AKU - RADJA

2010-08-11T20:44:00.001+08:00

i hope you mean it what you promise me.. as it was a pain to go through it.

Paramore: Ignorance [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

2010-08-07T16:30:00.000+08:00

i am changing every single bit of me.with the new me that bring alot of better outcome that would be in the end of the day..you hate me...you dun like the way i am that IGNORANCE is the best thing i do now.

my taste bits change even the melody of my life change..its no longer in written by those who judge me in the way you think..

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

2010-08-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

inside a room with four walls and the clock is ticking..

missing my old tymes..

the happiness i use to share with everyone..

with a friend who will to share teardrop with me..

Travie McCoy: Billionaire ft. Bruno Mars [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

2010-08-05T14:12:00.000+08:00

2010-07-22T19:22:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me

finally EIGHTEEN..

weee

daddy.

2010-07-04T18:48:00.002+08:00

daddy and me had been separated for 15 yrs...i think so...and lately when to court with mummy and saw daddy..well he owe us so much money especially mummy who been looking after us all this years....i know daddy life is hard but why he remarried if he known this will happen to him..he had to sell his house just to pay us...for so long he drag this case and from family court went to sub court..daddy is making himself dumb..i seriously very frustrated with him.. agrhhh...

back again

2010-06-25T15:24:00.000+08:00

been back on track..and things are a spin.

2010-01-23T14:04:00.001+08:00

i am speechless towards my own self..

2010-01-22T10:38:00.002+08:00

just woke up..decided to surf the net and i am really pourin with tears..
am i gong to get bck for what i had done..is bacen really gonna do what i had dreamt bout
i am really clueless now..when will bacen return because lots i wish to settle bout..

2010-01-21T18:53:00.001+08:00

my days are totally just left tears..i am not strong as i maybe seen..*tears rolling*

hating it alot.

2010-01-20T12:11:00.002+08:00

i kept ur secrets but why du friends that i thought i cud trust..but break my trust.

my days

2010-01-13T16:57:00.003+08:00

the truth my days are getting boring and tiring..hmm he`s going off in a few hours time..i am speechless as i cant say much in how much i am going to miss him.i just look into some photos and starting to have some negative thoughts over some photos..aish..feel like letting it all out but i think i just cant as i dun want him to think that i purposely think that way but it was so obvious..haish.. lets just put aside this issue..i am currently living with people that have two sided faces..when will this come to an end.. i am waiting for the right moment to say off..' STOP BEEN HYPOCRITE' stupid people..i know i shouldnt care abt them but they really a pain in e butt. infront of me youre innocent as an angel but behind me...u called me slug.. wow... i think ure only daring by saying to people but not with me..well what can i say...i think you are damn a coward..so **** off bytch and have a life cause i am not even fear of you one bit.. be who you are not a someone whose not you..

school reopen

2010-01-04T12:25:00.001+08:00

well school restart already and my working also start again..aish..
i sorry for abandoned some of my friends and loveones as i am getting busy..

countdown

2009-12-31T12:50:00.003+08:00

what a dreadful countdown for this year.
can say so begin of 2009 was horrible even ending also going to be horrible.
well the truth gt plans with my old friends but they plan to go drinking..
well i am done over drinking so i decided to put back myself from following them.
then gt plan with bie..suddenly..u knw what happen next..
how dreadful can this day be..
i feel like want to sleep and wake tomorrow instead..
seriously..i should do dat..well guys..i am heading for bed..
btw enjoy ur countdown..

gt some changes...thanks to my friends. my this countdown not so bad at all..

i had enough

2009-12-29T12:49:00.000+08:00

i cried and cried
guilty towards mummy
daddy i am really sorry..
give me one more chance..please daddy..
i love both you so much..
bie..thankx 4 the strength u gave to me..
thankx for catching my tears..
i love you too bie..

yes or no

2009-12-22T19:46:00.002+08:00

not feeling well today.
and my heart and mind too is not feeling well.
decision.
trying to make a good decision without to have to hurt my own self or others.
to believe to please people around us was easy
but the truth its really hard than i expect.
as i am getting older and responsibility is adding as time past.
i am feeling guilty now.
with a lot of things had happen this year.
hopefully 2010 is much better than 2009.
hopefully..

believe.

2009-12-20T20:40:00.002+08:00

i wish that i could just fly away from certain things..
just away from certain things only..hmmm

2009-12-18T15:55:00.002+08:00

ii never expect myself to start believe in dreams as in nightmares and wonderful daydreams..
well my dreams had been happening lately and some of them dont i meant the nightmares ones.
hopefully they dont happen in reality... well things are turning up great lately expect for the stupid cramps and tomorrow meeting my darling..finally after a week not meeting him..
and i cant really say dat my days were bored cause they were not..as my friend titi and zie had fill my boredness with fun..talk about friends..th truth i am dissappointed with some of my buddies..aish..i want to tell them the truth how i feel but i fear of saying something that hurt them...please help me someone...please....

missing

2009-12-15T19:44:00.003+08:00

'if i were to be given a chance to say out loud how much i miss you and how grateful i am to have you'
I WILL DO.

to be here waiting for you until we meet again.
missing you and thinking of you is all i could do till i could your smile again
walking down the street,
remind me the past, present and wondering about the future.
turning back to time.
he left me a speechless and hopeless there
but you took me away.
making me believe that it is not the end of life.
making every moment precious.
regaining my consciousness again

'all praise to GOD, Allah SWT for who had written my path meet with'
a very loving boyfriend. alhamdulilah. syukur.

its the time to let all out

2009-12-15T19:24:00.002+08:00

'i hated him and thrown far'

my heart had thrown him away
but why is he still in my mind
cause me to think all the hurt that you had cause and leaving me so hopeless
so why still bother me.
you have no rights towards me now
so dont even bother to ask anything that got to do with me

'if by chance, we meet again'

i will walk away and to turn back.
you have cause me to shed too much

'now you're gone'

END.the thoughts of him.
NOW.just other things,memories and current
myself,MyDARLING,family,friends
-you left without a trace(FINALLY, alhamdulilah)-

2009-12-08T10:36:00.002+08:00

my sister just discharge frm hospital and i really need to look after her 24seven.
its a responsibility...

missing my biee now..and i had always missing..my days had been filled with different feelings..filling myself with laughter always..eventhough how lame our conversation can be..

2009-12-04T10:17:00.002+08:00

finally everything is over..all project and presentation...now left to touch up only..:))
really was damn titring went back home late alwys..and presentation was ok.

- -

2009-12-01T16:15:00.000+08:00

Sorry will be away for awhile..busy with my schoolwork as submission are upcoming.. :)

today today

2009-11-24T11:40:00.001+08:00

school.AT 5pm, go parkway parade with zie and titi. :))

last sunday

2009-11-24T11:32:00.002+08:00

well the pictures say it all what i did last sunday. went to school in day time..night time at vivo with titi

- -

2009-11-24T10:31:00.002+08:00

well yesterday was ina birthday. got her a surprise. well its hard to get the whole class to be together in the canteen eating everyday..but just for special days.its not tat hard.

menatap matamu

2009-11-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

Sungguh indahnya hari berlalu
Menunggu kasih tambatan hati
Ingin rasanya selalu berbagi
Bersamanya kala suatu nanti

Andaikan kau jadi milikku
Selaluku nyanyikan lagu rindu
Andaikan kau dan aku bersatu
Dunia ini berseri selalu

Ku ingin dirimu dekat dihatiku
Berdua kita kan raih bahagia
Ku ingin dirimu turut merasa
Rasa rindu untuk menatap matamu
Menatap matamu

Bagaikan bintang nun jauh di sana
Terangi malam yang semakin gelap
Jika kau sudi menemaniku
Takkanku lepas walau sedetik pun

Andainya kau jadi milikku
Selaluku nyanyikan lagu rindu
Andaikan kau dan aku bersatu
Dunia ini berseri selalu

Ku ingin dirimu dekat dihatiku
Berdua kita kan raih bahagia
Ku ingin dirimu turut merasa
Rasa rindu 'tuk menatap matamu

Ku ingin dirimu dekat dihatiku
Berdua kita kan raih bahagia
Ku ingin dirimu turut merasa
Rasa rindu 'tuk menatap matamu

Andaikan kau jadi milikku
Selaluku nyanyikan lagu rindu
Andaikan kau dan aku bersatu
Dunia ini berseri selalu

Ku ingin dirimu dekat dihatiku
Berdua kita kan raih bahagia
Ku ingin dirimu turut merasa
Rasa rindu 'tuk menatap matamu

never meant to say it

2009-11-22T11:55:00.004+08:00

yesterday i went to bugis with titi. was bored at home so i went out den ard 12 when to my friend chalet. the turth i am feeling guilty that is why i am slient the whole night and didnt reply his text message. i told my friend that i dun trust my boyfee.well its not that i dun have any trust towards him but i am still feared of lost.but when i look in his eyes, i feel he is close to the heart but in msgs we sent to each other i cant feel how i feel when i look in his eyes. i think its my fault. my heart is half hearted. why i could get over all the hurt i had when thru. i dun want to make him think that i dun love him or love him 50 50..seriously i du love but at certain point of time its like unexplainable. and i should not accuse him yesterday night. but i did tried to called him but he didnt pick up all my calls..i am sorry for not replying your msg yesterday.

- -

2009-11-22T09:21:00.003+08:00

people meet MY SUPERMAN..

A superman that save my day with A smile.

2009-11-19T16:47:00.002+08:00

what with the agitated way of talking..haish..

- -

2009-11-19T16:41:00.002+08:00

whats wrong with biee??
biee kept given me this odd feeling and wonders..
damn it..

- -

2009-11-16T16:34:00.004+08:00

now damn bored..kancong my way to do my work BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN WE CANT HAVE FUN...YEAH...

--

2009-11-13T15:00:00.003+08:00

i am totally speechless now..i cant tell myself to smile anymore as the inner part just want me now to be so down in myself..wanted to let it all out but i cant not yet... bieee i need u here now at this moment..i dun want to tell u..but just want u to feel it with me..

three cheers for five years-mayday parade

2009-11-13T14:06:00.002+08:00

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)

To late, I'm sure and lonely
It's another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me, Baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
(Or break down the door to your heart)
Forever could see us not you and me
Or you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

To late, I'm sure and lonely
It's another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me, Baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now, remember you now
So sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to

_-_

2009-11-11T11:24:00.002+08:00

OLD UPDATES!!

FRIDAY NIGHT
bie was late...got pinched on his nipple for been late from me..haha
had a great night with darling after one week never see him.. :))
SATURDAY
went out with mummy and areena (my sis)
went to pasir ris to get my sis her new ezlink
then went to geylang to buy my stuff
and mummy went to pay bills..
SUNDAY
missingbiealldaylong
MONDAY
went to school
done test...
then back home..
TUESDAY
didnt went to school

- -

2009-11-06T09:48:00.003+08:00

can`t wait for tonight
meeting bieee... :))

_-_

2009-11-05T15:27:00.002+08:00

been struck in school and late back home just for doing my autocad assignment and 3dmax..well this are one of my drawing of autocad..haish got lots to do...

2009-11-04T14:58:00.001+08:00

i want my bieeeeeeeee...
missing you badly...

- -

2009-11-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

just got a news for my class advisor..this term kena debarred again..well i am not so shocked over this matter as we the attendances i had shown..hmm i just need to expect this matter again..its not that i am lazy but totally hating this course as this is totally not my interest as i join this course because of mommy...argh why i always have this problem...mommy u dun noe how much i am try to make myself survive in this course...
haish..i wish she would listen to me..

- -

2009-11-04T10:02:00.000+08:00

now in school and i am suppose to be doing my 3Dmax stuff but didnt do it and surf the net instead...well got the no mood to do work at all...i dun noe i just not so semangat into 3dmax already...well left 4 weeks to submit this..i am still hanky panky over this..yeah i know autocad is already to completion...got caught in a fight with my mommy jus before i went to school..u should noe how naggy she can be...it really causing my every inch of my hair to stand...

my one mth anniversary

2009-10-31T11:51:00.001+08:00

now is the time for me to introduce whose my mystery hubbie.as i had promise to tell u guys once i have celebrated my one mth annivesary with him.but yesterday was in advance due to on our actual day itself, we cant celebrate it as he will be in camp. :(( its ok at least we are able to celebrate in advance. so this hubbie of mine is none than other, mr muhammad asyraf bin ahmad sukri. well for those who know him.yeah i am with him now.we have been together coming to a month.how do i know this hubbie of mine..well quite a complicated story but i will try to shorten it up.i was been introduced to him by ariff as they were related as in friends. and that i was with ariff. there was one of the days when ariff phone got problem, he use asyraf phone to get through me and from there he got my number.never did i expect for him to save my phone number.he didnt contact me until one of the days after i broke off with ariff, he sent an sms to me and from that day onwards i started to be in contact..then on when we were offically became LOVELY COUPLE.heh..the truth there is no saying to each other `will u be girlfriend or boyfriend thingy`..well lets put it this way i love him and he love me until we just treat each other as our loveone.talking about him just make me missing him more.. :P so that is how i know him. btw i am sorry that i could not post a pic of him as my camera got problem..haish..and i though of asking my friend to borrow my friend camera but she bynk the songeh..next tyme i will try to post a pic of us kae.. :))

down in the drain due to boredness

2009-10-30T07:32:00.002+08:00

seriously damn bored..at home has becoming more bored than ever..i cant expect myself to sleep 24 hrs..i got a solution to this problem because all my buddies are busy with work and exams..and since my exam is around the corner i left with no opinion but to study..i, myself am shocked over to how much school assignment i had completed..why i am saying this..well usually i will never get myself completing my assignment..and i would always be at the back of the class doing my own work..to somehow by been force to sit in front now. i am much more focus over my schoolwork...hehe..this really dont sound like me..hmm a`aah i almost forgot...I HAD BEEN APART FROM MY LG SECRET HANDPHONE....sob2 i want my handphone back... :(( and i lately use my sony ericsson slim phone but because of fights with my sis i had to give it away...hmmm

study again

2009-10-29T10:40:00.000+08:00

well what can i say more than grumble my way in studies...well got my butt up and start to do my autocad work...haish....4 weeks left and i just feel so sick in doing all this crap work..yeah yeah...i know all this is for my damn shit future..well try to get ur pants in my situation..in a cousre that i am now hating..well mum want me to be in this new cousre because she thinks i will succeed in it but i dun tink so..ok so far thanks to my teachers..and my classmates..i think i will succeed...they are helping me out now so i too could pass my exam..i really apperciate it..:))
THANKS ALOT YOU GUYS!!

after penang trip

2009-10-27T19:41:00.000+08:00

When i arrive at s`pore the first thing was to switch on my phone...GUESS what i found hubbie msg me that he miss me alot...hehe,,,wad to say next i quickly msg him back and tell him that i was back in s`pore...well of course the next two days i meet him up and gave him his gift...it is consider the first time we meet after so long time never meet him...for the first holding his hands..be in his arms..heh..the way i say as i now first tyme fall in love..hehe..
what to say its the sweet memories..*bieee damn missing u now..haish...* :((

the old updates

2009-10-27T18:49:00.000+08:00

hey sorry after so long i didn`t update my beloved bloggy...heh...well i was away for penang with my class and when i got back in s`pore..suddenly got high fever..well for two weeks didn`t went to school....what to say i was damn sick during that period of tyme but during that period of time can say some good things happen and some bad things happen.you will know it in a short while...well lets start from the day i went for penang...well i found out that ariff was with a new girl and just giving me false hope...haish well u can say at that moment i was seriously down on my knees crying...but at that moment i was already in contact with this guy whose now my hubbie...well why i am keepin his name as a secret because waiting for my picture with him which i am going to take on our one month anniversary then i will post our pic and introduce to you, guys whose my hubbie...hees..
well back to my story....my hubbie who console me and was there when i was crying and thanx to him, i had found out the truth of ariff...dammit he just making me angry just by saying his name...well in the evening tyme i had proceed my way to penang then well wad to say i start to have feelings for my hubbie around that period of tyme...before i went he had sent a sweet msg that he waited for me..heh...only away for a week but the waiting was like a month..heh..about penang...well i had lots of fun and u could see from the pictures above...heh....

i am sorry

2009-10-01T15:29:00.000+08:00

hmm i had to leave him behind as he wasnt meant for me anymore eventhough i had a great time with him.i noe when my heart say that someone else which is going to be part of his life should take my place as i had only cause him pain and tears for our 6 mths...i am sorry to took the decision in erasing something which was suppose to be part of me and the only way of us to be back together but after i think back and didn`t want to hurt ur mum or any or ur family members...to think back your responsibilties i noe u are not willing to take the risk which and i noe u tak akan balek ngan i...i tahu bahawa u want to keep a clean record of urself and make sure that others will maintain thinking that ur good..i understand..and i will miss u and hope god will make u meet me but i dun thnk so can.well bye muhammad ariff. thanx for the love.

a big new step

2009-09-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

i am now starting a new BIG step forward in life and leaving my past
because after realise that GUYS think that i am weak and use my weakness
as a target for them to hurt me indirectly.NOW no more MISSY LITTLE NICE GIRL..
cause i make sure those who try to knock me down..i make sure will get the guts of you...
for those guys that kept thinking i am cheap i make sure u will lost ur manhood and see you the one who will be crying...

damn tired

2009-09-04T14:17:00.000+08:00

firstly i am seriously tired not enough rest
today never went school because got
excursion at SAF open house..
so didn`t want to go..
stay at home and continue my sleep
well soon got to chase for the time as i am going to work late on..
hmmmmm
seriously i am insufficient of rest..

first day of work..

2009-09-03T10:44:00.000+08:00

well the tittle say it all...
yesterday can say so that i had a great day..
making cookies...
and today going to work again...
for today in school is damn shit boring larh....
mrs tan talk talk
make me go goo goo gagaga...
arghhh so head ache!!!

back at home

2009-08-31T13:54:00.000+08:00

just sucks...
staying at home is damn boring nothing to do while
at school only 13 of us enter for today class
seriously i need get some work to do or crap shit
i will keep thinking of the past
seriously i don`t want to cry no more...
oh no...
i am thinking....haixxx..
sob!!sob!!

argghhh

2009-08-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

arghhhhh
just missing myself allloooott
the girl who love to be hers
why people have to think different of me...
i am also a human...
just like you people out there